Some days I’m still her
she is inside me like a nesting doll
some days I split open
and there she is
still that crass and skinny cast off
a pre teen beauty queen
learning to work
in a halter top mini- skirt
and leg warmers
swaying and twirling her way around the skate rink
to Journey
Rick James
Joan Jett
lovin rock n roll in her glitter stained roller skates
lovin rock n roll in her glitter stained roller skates
hair feathered roach clips
and teased lips
red and her high heels waiting in the rental locker
lights swirling
lights swirling
she’s thinking
I’ve got this
I'm ok, ya know?
just ok.
just ok.
the lights will save me
the movement will save me
I'm worth saving
the movement will save me
I'm worth saving
a bigger me will grow
up and around this mess like armour
and having stayed alive til puberty
having carried it all
like a bag of knives
this girl will get to rest
she’ll get to nest.